The past 7 days have been mentally tough in this brain of mine.
I was starting to doubt a decision I made a little over 5 years ago. Through taking action, as faith without works is dead, God has been showing up in many ways to reassure me that that decision was right.
Just for today, as that’s all I really have, I am again continuing to stay on this path. Many a message was so clear, including two different hand written, snail mailed, letters I got yesterday.
Thanks God and thanks for your two angels who helped to reassure me. I can see clearly again ;0)
I love this Clairey. Thanks for writing about it. I hear so many people talk about “The Secret”. ‘If you put your mind to it, you will accomplish.’ Yes, I do partly agree, but your need to get your keister pushing it as well. Even if it’s baby steps…. a little bit everyday helps.
Hmmm, my keister? I think you are implying that I or anyone else isn’t gonna gonna get and stay sober purely by osmosis? If so, I agree! Everyday I take steps on insuring my recovery. Some days more than others. Depends on the day and my mental well being. Starting off with HALT. Am I Hungry, Angry, Lonely, or Tired? I might ad dehydrated as well. If all these are good, I still try to make it to a meeting, pray to a Higher Power of my understanding, meditate, live the 12 steps and try to be of service. I do the very same things today as I did nearly 6 years ago to maintain my sobriety! The consaquinces now of me picking up are far worse than when I got sober as I’m a mother and wife and I have far more to ‘loose’ if I don’t continue to ‘not regret the past but never shut the door on it’. Personally I have a built in forgetter and I must remind myself of where I came from and where I could so easily go with ‘just one’. That being said, I’m not yet the person I want to be but I’m so grateful I’m not the gal I used to be. As long as I remain teachable and push my ego aside, I feel my goals are attainable!