Everybody is posting New Year’s resolutions via social media. Meanwhile, my 41 year old butt is over here thinking, “Hahahaha, clearly these folks aren’t in a 12 step group or have learned from years of failed resolutions like myself!”
Maybe I’m being a bit judgmental but if I asked for a show of hands what percentage of folks kept those resolutions all year long; my guess would be very few hands would be raised. This brings me to yet another reason I can find blessings from my past and find gratitude for my life today.
How many New Year’s mornings did I wake (or finally go to bed) and vow, with or without a solemn oath, to NEVER do that again? Truth be told, we always called holidays such as New Years, amateur hour. It wasn’t just a particular holiday when I’d say those ‘fox hole prayers’ to the higher power, I didn’t believe in but was bartering with anyhow. If you drank and used like I did, you can probably relate.
Just for TODAY! I try my best to live in the moment and find gratitude each 24 hour period as we are taught to do so in recovery. This doesn’t mean I don’t try to achieve long time goals. For me it just helps me not to be so overwhelmed! If I still tried to make resolutions for an entire year, 365 whole days I tend to freak out. Knowing I have the power to live in the moment and even start my day over at any time is such a fabulous gift. For someone like me who couldn’t stand the thought of being in recovery the rest of my life, it is such a gift to know that… I just need to stay sober today. Who knows what will happen tomorrow anyways?
I also commend many folks who’ve gotten creative with resolutions and coined them New Year’s intentions. I tried doing this for a few years as well. And I’m sure many if you are familiar with the quote, “the road to hell is paved with good intentions”. Ha! So today, this alcoholic/addict, known worry wart, and future tripper is going to do her best to remember to stay present. Uh oh, hold on just one dang minute! Did I just make a resolution?! Did I just commit to live in the day for 365 full 24 hour days? I’m full of lies! Hehe, gee whiz, I’ll just keep coming back. “Progress not perfection” huh?!
I wish you each many 24 hours at a time with love, from Wyoming.